God Dreams For Me

Day three hundred sixty-four

Lately, I have been feeling like my relationship with my boys is in transition again.  This transition is not going as smoothly as I had hoped.  I never seem to have the right words or know how to react to the situations that have come up.  And when I do decide to speak the boys look at me with those eyes that say, "Um, Mom you aren't making any sense, but I still love you."  I am the socially awkward, bumbling dork lately.  I am hoping this is some phase that we are going through and will soon pass.

So, much of my prayer this morning was a plea to the Lord for some direction regarding this situation. Hopefully, the Spirit will help me get through this with a little dignity. 

Psalm 20

"Dreams are the touchstones of our character." ~Henry David Thoreau

Dreams are usually associated with thoughts, emotions, or images occurring during certain periods of our sleep cycle.  But the word dream is also used to mean the things that we desire or hope for in our heart.  We have all said things like:  "I dream of someday being a doctor" or "I dream of having a family one day" or "I dream of someday being famous."  We all have dreams. 

We have to be careful what we dream for or hold in our heart.  We have been warned in Jeremiah 17:9-10 that "The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? I the Lord search the heart, I try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, and according to the fruit of his doings." 

The things in our heart can also lead to good, "Delight thyself also in the Lord; and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart" (Psa 37:4). If our dreams or heart's desires match that of the Lord's then He will make them happen (Psa 37:5).  What we truly desire or dream really can say a lot about our character, but it also says a lot about our relationship with God.  I have often asked the Lord to show me His will, but I don't think I've ever asked the Lord to share His dreams with me.  What would it be like to ask God what is in His heart and what He dreams about?
 
I was lead to this train of thought from verse 4 "Grant thee according to thine own heart, and fulfil all thy counsel. " David asks the Lord to act according to what is in His heart, not what's in his own heart.  It is not about having his dreams come true, but having God's dreams put into him.  

At first I thought that this would be an amazing thing to happen, to know God's dreams, but then I began to think about all the responsibility that comes with that.  I'm not sure I want or am ready for that kind of relationship with God.  I'm sure His dreams are much bigger than mine.  What would He expect of me if I knew what He desired?  My weaknesses were starting to get the best of me!

Then I came across this quote:  "Don’t be afraid of letting God put His dreams in you. God gives us dreams a size too big so that we can grow into them." ~ Unknown

Now that is the proper perspective to have! Suddenly my insecurities seem ridiculous as they are pushed aside by the thought that God dreams for me.  As a parent I know that I have dreams for my children, why would I think it would be any different for Him?

This is highly personal, knowing what God dreams for us.   It is a testament to the relationship that He wants to have with us, intimate and loving.  He knows everything about us, our strengths and our weaknesses, so His dreams for us are based on His perfect knowledge of us.

In the heading of this Psalm we read that David wrote this psalm as a plea to ask the Lord to hear his prayer in times of trouble.  I think that is a brilliant request, but I think asking God to put His dreams for us in us, is even more brilliant.  I can see how knowing what God hopes and desires for us could help us in times of need.  I know my interest is definitely piqued concerning what God dreams for me.  I foresee some deep prayer conversation coming in my future regarding this topic.  Hopefully, His dreams for me won't be too big and I will grow into them gracefully.